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Life update 2014

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Life update 2014

Hi all!

It’s been too long. So much has happened since the last time I blogged in June. I haven’t felt like blogging much due to some rough times on the home front. I think I’m finally ready to start-up again. This is long so if you feel like getting comfy before reading please do 😉

YAY!

YAY!

When I last posted I was still on the Robin’s Nest design team, I finished my time with them and had a great time. Shortly after that term ended I was asked to be on another design team, the Amazing Crafting Products team. I get to play and work with resin and make molds out of some amazing stuff! Just after my first project I got a call I never thought I’d get, a call I wish I never got. My brother called me and told me our father was dead. I lost my amazing, bear-hug giving, encouraging, wise father. A man who was my rock after losing my mom, a man who pursued his bucket list the year after Mom died. My father was killed in a motorcycle accident that wasn’t his fault. My family is no longer intact as it was growing up. Losing my Dad shortly after losing my mom out of the blue to cancer was a total and complete shock to my system. He died a few weeks before his 65th birthday. My brothers and I sprang into action immediately and liquidated his house and belongings, met with a lawyer, collected his items, made arrangements for cremation within a week of everything happening. I’m incredibly proud of how they stepped up to the plate to get everything together and have the mind to know what to do and when, I know I couldn’t be that person. My brother Micah has been doing an amazing job handling the estate stuff and I think it’s almost at an end 6 months later.

My amazing father, I was so blessed to have him. <3

My amazing father, I was so blessed to have him. ❤

After losing Dad I’ve lost the desire to create and do art. I’ve been around my amazing art tribe, amazing art friends, art events and nothing … nada … zip … no creativity. It has really bothered me and I know it’s part of the loss, I’m regrouping myself, finding out what’s important to me and what isn’t. It’s showing me true friends, people who care and people who couldn’t care less.

Can you tell which eye has the 3D mascara on?

Can you tell which eye has the 3D mascara on?

During this time I found a new passion that I really love and that is making people feel beautiful. I’m now a presenter for the amazing and fastest growing direct sales company, Younique. Yes I sell that 3D mascara! How does makeup tie in to my loss? My father always, always encouraged me in business whether it was a good or bad decision. I was getting really depressed over the summer with the loss of my parents and loss of my creativity, my world was shattered. Being a stay-at-home mom can get lonely at times and I had way too much time to think, which made me overthink and do what-if scenarios (those are never good). My neighbor had a virtual makeup party and I bought this 3D mascara that I kept hearing about and it changed my life, literally! This makeup company I believe God put in my path at the right moment to get me out of the dumps. Dad passed on July 13th and I signed up August 6th. One of the reasons I signed up was because I knew he would have encouraged me to do so, the 2nd week in the company I had 2 friends sign up under me, the following week I had 2 more, it felt like a blessing and it has been a blessing. I am again contributing to the family financially, I’m able to bless others and give when I want to and give freely, this has always been a passion of mine but I’ve never been able to. I thank God for Younique and I really feel like Dad is smiling and cheering me on with my new venture. I’ve had to be creative in a different way with this company and marketing myself, I’ve had a smile daily since joining and I haven’t stepped back into the darkness of depression. Here is my website if you’d like to check it out yourself.

My 2nd cousin Amanda on the right :)

My 2nd cousin Amanda on the right 🙂

The past few months I’ve been able to do a lot of traveling as well! I got to go visit my amazing cousin Carolyn (more like my sister) in NJ and her family. Manasquan was beautiful in September!! Her family is another shining example of how to live with hardship and setbacks. All 3 of her daughters, as well as her husband have congenital heart issues and have been in and out of hospitals much of their lives. They are still living and dreaming and making plans in the midst of it all. Her son is away at West Point and they couldn’t be prouder of their entire brood. Keep them all in your prayers. If you’d like to donate to their charity please check it out here. They are amazing and their charity should be known. Love you guys!

Our view!

Our view!

In October I got to go back to Vegas with my hubby, it had been 4 years since the last time. We stayed at the MGM Grand again and it was still fun to get around. He was there for a work conference and I found stuff to do during the day. The days before the conference we did something on our bucket list, visit the Grand Canyon! I left my heart in Arizona and at the GC. We stayed right on the canyon at the Bright Angel Lodge, this was our view from the steps of our room. The most incredible experience ever and I can’t wait to go back! We loved it so much we are decorating our house in a Southwestern theme.

Most of my tribe!

Most of my tribe!

In November I went to be with my art tribe in St. Pete. It was our year reunion since we all first started playing together in St. Pete the year before at the art retreat I went to on my 40th birthday “The Joy of Collage” with Lynn Whipple and e’Layne. I love these awesome women and they came to me at the right time in my life when I needed them. I treasure each and every one of them!

We braved a road trip to NC for Thanksgiving with these 2 crazies! We survived!

We braved a road trip to NC for Thanksgiving with these 2 crazies! We survived!

In November we took our first road trip as a family of 4 to North Carolina to be with my remaining family for Thanksgiving. What a crazy trip that was. It was nice being with family and I was really happy to be home to warmer weather, it wasn’t that cold there but boy I turned into a Florida blooded girl! It was great seeing my brother Nate and his growing family as well as the rest of the fam. My brother’s and I also released Dad’s ashes in Williamsburg, VA, one of his favorite places and where we took a lot of family vacations growing up.

On the art front I’ve been working for some amazing creative women who I just adore. e’Layne Koenigsberg and Lora Lee Davids of Art by e’Layne and 3 Hip Chics. These women have also been a Godsend to me, I was looking for a way to work from home (before Younique) and this job fell into my lap when I needed it. I paint boards for them to make repros of e’Layne’s art in the wholesale market and local markets. I also help with other various items as they live in St. Pete. I LOVE making trips to see them and “work”. Check out their amazing products here!

Lately I’ve started turning the loft into my indoor studio and I’m slowly starting to feel creative again. I’ve been building IKEA furniture left and right! I have to thank Susan for keeping me grounded in art on the design team, it’s been my only creative outlet for the last 6 months. I’m happy to say I’ve decided to stay on the team for the next 6 months or as long as she’ll keep me!

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Obligatory "I'm Published" shot at Barnes & Noble! LOL

Obligatory “I’m Published” shot at Barnes & Noble! LOL

This month another dream of mine came true when I got a piece of art published in Somerset Studio Gallery magazine! My painting Olive was sent in last year and was picked to be in the issue. I plan on sending more art in to hopefully be published. Next goal is to have a spread and not just an image in a mixed media mag. I want to thank all of my art friends who encouraged me to go for it! Check that off the bucket list!!

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Lily (3) and Lorelei (almost 8) on her birthday!

 

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How many kids get to have Santa sing “Happy Birthday” to them? My girl did!! 🙂

 

My sweet baby girl just turned 3 last week! How did that happen? Seriously, didn’t I just have her? Time is flying by so fast. Next month my oldest turns 8! What I’ve learned over the last 2 years is to live your life to the fullest, make each moment count, be positive daily, keep going even when you don’t feel like it, love on people and on your loved ones and anything can happen at any time. BE IN THE MOMENT and LIVE! Well that was much longer than I planned but a lot has happened in 6 months, hope I didn’t ramble too much.

I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and holiday season.

XOXO

Aimée

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Not sure I’m ready for this post but here goes.

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My blog has been silent for a long time due to personal reasons. I’ve been living in a fog since September 18th, 2012, the day my Mom was diagnosed with stage 4 uterine cancer. To say I was shocked was an understatement as this came from out of the blue. My Mom was one of the healthiest people I knew, she took supplements, stopped using a microwave years ago, took a holistic approach to everything how could this diagnosis be true?  How could this be happening to my family, especially my Mom? What seemed like years dragged out into only 5 more months with her, it was a constant roller coaster ride. We were believing for a complete healing, quoting scripture, prayers and whatever we felt would make her better. God is a healer but He has ultimate say when our time is up. We all wrestled with this as a family and looked to my Dad for wisdom and strength. Dad was her caretaker 24/7 for those 5 months as they were able to do home hospice at my brother’s house. I learned how strong my father really is. They were high school sweethearts and would have been celebrating their 43rd anniversary in May. They had 47 wonderful years together, raised 4 kids (they weren’t supposed to have any) and got to meet 6 grandkids. Mom was there for the birth of both of my daughters and for that I’m grateful. She was there for my wedding and one of my biggest supporters for my art. I got my creativity from my Mom who encouraged me at the age of 3 to start painting rocks and bottles. I am slowly emerging from this fog, this week its been hitting me that she’s really gone. I take each moment of grief and go with it. I’m crying as I write this. I miss her but I’m at peace with it all. She didn’t complain once during her struggle to live. She didn’t have an attitude or feel sorry for herself, if she did she didn’t show it. She was amazingly strong. I don’t know if I could do that. I remember visiting her one day and it was too much emotionally for me as I saw her deteriorating and she offered to pray for me. I’m the one who should have prayed for her in the moment but I couldn’t. I tried to be strong around her and for my Dad. She was an amazing woman of God, friend, encourager to anyone she met. The world was a better place with her in it. My world was a better place. Finding out how to move on without her is hard. I am dreading Mother’s day. She’s been gone for a little over a month now and it is slowly getting easier, I’m usually good if I stay busy. If there is one thing I learned from all of this is that things can change in an instant! IT’s TIME to live now! It’s time to live in the moment, love in the moment. Don’t put off doing what you want to do any longer, the time is NOW! Be present with your family, your friends, your loved ones. Just BE in the moment every day, all day. Take time for you, pursue your dreams, mend those fences, forgive those that have hurt you and move on. I don’t know what life is going to look like a year from now but I do know that I’m not going to waste time on worry, regrets and bad things. Love on your family, call your parents if you’re lucky enough to have them both. Life is short and fleeting so please don’t take that for granted. There are so many things I wish I got to do with my Mom that I’ll never get the chance to do now. Don’t waste time. The time is now. I just hope she’s proud of me and all I will accomplish. I do have one thing to look forward to which is seeing her in Heaven one day. I will see her again. She is reunited with her brother Mike and her Mom, my dear Nana who passed 4 years ago. Through all this it’s easy to get mad at God but I can’t, I thought I would be but I’m not. He carried me through this entire situation and I felt it. His grace was there to keep me going. I’m so happy I have my faith to hold onto during hardships. I never thought I’d have to face such a horrible one but I’m emerging and I’m OK. If there is one thing I miss now it’s my Mom’s distinctive laugh, you could hear it from a mile away. She was such a clown and so much fun. I love you Mom.

Mom is in the middle.

Mom is in the middle.