26 Mar 2013 24 Comments
My blog has been silent for a long time due to personal reasons. I’ve been living in a fog since September 18th, 2012, the day my Mom was diagnosed with stage 4 uterine cancer. To say I was shocked was an understatement as this came from out of the blue. My Mom was one of the healthiest people I knew, she took supplements, stopped using a microwave years ago, took a holistic approach to everything how could this diagnosis be true? How could this be happening to my family, especially my Mom? What seemed like years dragged out into only 5 more months with her, it was a constant roller coaster ride. We were believing for a complete healing, quoting scripture, prayers and whatever we felt would make her better. God is a healer but He has ultimate say when our time is up. We all wrestled with this as a family and looked to my Dad for wisdom and strength. Dad was her caretaker 24/7 for those 5 months as they were able to do home hospice at my brother’s house. I learned how strong my father really is. They were high school sweethearts and would have been celebrating their 43rd anniversary in May. They had 47 wonderful years together, raised 4 kids (they weren’t supposed to have any) and got to meet 6 grandkids. Mom was there for the birth of both of my daughters and for that I’m grateful. She was there for my wedding and one of my biggest supporters for my art. I got my creativity from my Mom who encouraged me at the age of 3 to start painting rocks and bottles. I am slowly emerging from this fog, this week its been hitting me that she’s really gone. I take each moment of grief and go with it. I’m crying as I write this. I miss her but I’m at peace with it all. She didn’t complain once during her struggle to live. She didn’t have an attitude or feel sorry for herself, if she did she didn’t show it. She was amazingly strong. I don’t know if I could do that. I remember visiting her one day and it was too much emotionally for me as I saw her deteriorating and she offered to pray for me. I’m the one who should have prayed for her in the moment but I couldn’t. I tried to be strong around her and for my Dad. She was an amazing woman of God, friend, encourager to anyone she met. The world was a better place with her in it. My world was a better place. Finding out how to move on without her is hard. I am dreading Mother’s day. She’s been gone for a little over a month now and it is slowly getting easier, I’m usually good if I stay busy. If there is one thing I learned from all of this is that things can change in an instant! IT’s TIME to live now! It’s time to live in the moment, love in the moment. Don’t put off doing what you want to do any longer, the time is NOW! Be present with your family, your friends, your loved ones. Just BE in the moment every day, all day. Take time for you, pursue your dreams, mend those fences, forgive those that have hurt you and move on. I don’t know what life is going to look like a year from now but I do know that I’m not going to waste time on worry, regrets and bad things. Love on your family, call your parents if you’re lucky enough to have them both. Life is short and fleeting so please don’t take that for granted. There are so many things I wish I got to do with my Mom that I’ll never get the chance to do now. Don’t waste time. The time is now. I just hope she’s proud of me and all I will accomplish. I do have one thing to look forward to which is seeing her in Heaven one day. I will see her again. She is reunited with her brother Mike and her Mom, my dear Nana who passed 4 years ago. Through all this it’s easy to get mad at God but I can’t, I thought I would be but I’m not. He carried me through this entire situation and I felt it. His grace was there to keep me going. I’m so happy I have my faith to hold onto during hardships. I never thought I’d have to face such a horrible one but I’m emerging and I’m OK. If there is one thing I miss now it’s my Mom’s distinctive laugh, you could hear it from a mile away. She was such a clown and so much fun. I love you Mom.
05 Jan 2013 Leave a Comment
Today’s art is digital and I used my new Sensu stylus and iPad 2 using the Paper app. I just started an art-a-day challenge on FB if you want to join me. I will try to remember to post my art daily on the blog, if not it will go here.
04 Jan 2013 Leave a Comment
Ok so I haven’t blogged since my birthday in October (slaps self in face) so I figured I’d blog a bit right now. Lots happened in 2012 some good, some stressful, some bad. I’m happy to welcome a new year of new opportunities and closure on some things weighing on my family. This isn’t a bummer of a post so I’m going to keep things on a high note. I don’t have a word for the year but I do have a phrase I’m going to do my best to wholeheartedly embrace, that is “GO FOR IT!”
This year I’m going to jump into new adventures, challenges and take more risks with a lot of different things. In October of this year I’m turning the BIG 4-0! YIKES! I want to be fit and fab for my birthday so one of the first things I’m going to jump into is CrossFit! I’m completely terrified of it but I’m willing to embrace it and just “GO FOR IT!” I want to lose 50 pounds and get rid of the so-called baby weight. My daughter just turned 1 so I don’t have an excuse anymore!
With my art I’m definitely taking more risks! Since attending Tracy Verdugo‘s “Paint Mojo” class in November I’m definitely freer in my art and I’m not planning things out too much. I ‘m having fun! I plan on keeping this attitude and seeing what the outcomes are. I’ve signed up for a challenge on FB as well that is to create a new piece of art every day for 2013. It doesn’t have to be a painting but it could be a sketch or something much more simple. I’ll be making an album on Flickr with my art a day challenge. Join in if you like!
My life at home, I want to be more organized. If we ever close on our house I will finally be able to decorate and make the house ours. This is a BIG frustration now. Hopefully by the end of February, this has been going on a year now. Still haven’t unpacked all of our moving boxes.
I also want to spend more time with friends! When we moved back to FL we thought we’d have all this awesome time with our close friends and yet we’ve been back here for almost 3 years now and we NEVER do anything with them. I hate this so much because we need the time to have fun. It’s hard with 2 small kids and I love being a mom but we need some adult time. I think we just need to steal it when we can, this goes for dates too.
OK so there you have it, it’s out in the open….ack! This is my accountability post, I hope I can stick to it all and have a wonderful year. 2013 don’t let me down, better yet … Aimée don’t let yourself down!
Happy New Year to all of you! I hope 2013 is full of blessings for you!
04 Jan 2013 Leave a Comment
This is a revised painting that I did today. The old piece I did probably in 2008 and hated it but kept the canvas. Today I layered on more paper and painty goodness and this is what emerged. I just started an art-a-day challenge on FB if you want to join me. I will try to remember to post my art daily on the blog, if not it will go here.
29 Oct 2012 Leave a Comment
I am proud to be a part of this benefit this weekend. If you’re in the Orlando area check it out and join us! Great art from all local artists. There will be art all the way from Uganda from the kids we’re helping out. I’ve donated a piece for the auction called “Peace”.
16 Oct 2012 5 Comments
***Blog winners*** Still waiting to hear from a few of your so I can mail off your winnings! Send me your addy’s please! OK now that that is out of the way on to my latest series.
I responded to a call to artists from Orlando City Arts Factory (where my skateboards were) for their October Third Thursday and the theme was Day of the Dead/Monsters. They are going all out for this one! They’re even having a zombie-walk downtown! I won’t be able to make the opening and couldn’t bring my family even if I wanted to (the girls would be freaked out) but I decided to still participate. I created an original owl painting I was going to show and hopefully add to but it was bought before I could even bring it down. So I created another one and then the rest of the series sort of exploded! As of now I’ve sold 3, I’ve had commissions pop up for the same style, my friend in Mt. Dora wants a bunch for her shop and I traded one to another friend for some of her art. I’ve created little matching ACEO’s as well. This series is so much fun and I’m still thinking of new ideas. Right now they off to the scanner to have prints/cards made as well. I can’t wait to see them all! I will be creating more for the Halloween show at Twisted Vine in Sanford as well! The bat one is going to be the one going to City Arts Factory today for the opening on Thursday night. If you’re local go check it out! If you want to see the whole series go to my FB page. As always thanks for reading!
Aimée AKA Mazer